My Journal

Hello! I hope this site can be used as a place where i cant shout out all my thoughts into the void. just a girl trying her best :)

Last essay. I also watched sinners last night! I like the music lol. Ive been feeling really anxious today idk if thats going to go away but it was better than last night bc i stayed up till 4 bc of how anxious i was lol. Anyway, i wish i can just be done with this essay im soooo close to the finish line i can feel it but my brain is all but fried lol.

I cant belueve its already been 3 days in august, thats literally insane. I basically did everything i could to not do this essay. Im on coffee 5 but im doing that because im so drained. I hate papers. I'm so tired i just want it to be overr.. Update: i did it. im so, so tired but i did it.. Just 1 more essay but then im DONE. I'm honestly so tired i could cry lmaooo but i also turned in the worst essay in my life but ill be damned if i have to look at it for one more second. you know its bad when i only skimmed it before i submitted, im so done lol

Turns out going outside IS actually good for you. didn't do a lick of my essay though but idc (i really should). I also signed up for this art thing with people and i regret that sooooo much idk why i did it but im not going to cancel its too late. sigh, live and learn ig.

I HATE SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why make me do 6 page papers every weeekkkk Im so burnt out im going to scream. I need to lock in but i cant this is the most boring paper ive ever done in my life and I dont know how i did it for the past 4 weeks. i did like 24 page paper in just a month!!! insane!!! Honestly, looking back im pretty proud of myself considering how I cried at that class bc I thougt i was too stupid to do it lol. Ig if its anything, i got a bit more confidence in myself that i can handle hard things so yipie!!

Anyway, i was really bored today and filled with procrastination so i made homemade cookies, made some pizza, and learned how to retie my ukulele sting! I only got through 1/4 of my rough draft for my essay (i already finished my researching though) so i hope to finish it. I'm also deciding to go out tomorrow because ive been stuck at home for 2 weeks and its been bumming me out. I miss going out with family too :(

Thought there was going to be silksong today... Honestly I actually have no clue if its ever coming out. Oh well. I was putting on the direct at work I was so sure haha. I overslept by a few hours for my afterwork nap. Normally I don't like sleeping so long, but im sure my body needed it. I honestly kind of hate having to pile on more work after a long day, but i only have just two more papers to do and then im free. To say that I'm burnt out is an understatement. I honestly just want to animate lol.

first entry! I don't know how to code so I won't bother :/ I made this as a place for me because I don't have any irl friends to share so the void it is I should honestly be doing my paper right now lol. If my days are worth a photo, then I'll try figuing out a way to add it in here to correspond to the entry so we will see! Anyway, I bought myself a bracelet and a replacement string for my ukelele so I'm excited! :D I never by myself nice things I dont know why I am so stingy with anything not 100% necessary for me. I should treat myself more often.